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Hello again. [02 Feb 2015|08:58am]
Well hello there, LiveJournal. It's been awhile, hasn't it? Somewhere in the ballpark of 8 years, if I'm not mistaken.

Yes, as you can imagine, quite a bit has changed since I saw you last. Do I plan on recapping the entire 8 years? No, not right now at least.

I need you because I need myself. I need to organize my conscious thought. I need to shoot off from the hip and get to know me.

I plan on elaborating on all these ideals in the very near future. Later today, most likely.

Just wanted to break the ice, and say hello.

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Easily Amused. [09 Jul 2006|01:53pm]
I stumbled upon 'Texas Crumpet' in the Urban Dictionary just now and my side still hurts from laughing.
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Fuck. [03 Jun 2006|12:07pm]
I don't think I've updated this thing since I've stepped foot in this damned country, but better late than never right?

So I wrecked my car last night, and by wrecked I mean some asshole was in my lane coming at me at like 100mph and I swerved to miss him, hitting a soft shoulder in the process and fishtailing about 4 times before my car completely rolled over. Oddly enough I was absolutely fine afterwards. I mean I expected to be in shock and to look down and see a leg missing or something but I pretty much got out of the car, dusted myself off, and said "Fuck" really loud. Apparently those seat belts that people are always lecturing you about actually work. I'm sure relations with my insurance company will improve significantly. Bitches.

Other than that though I really have nothing important to say, other than I probably deploy again in December/January.

Fuck what I would do right now for some Super Nachos. Does anyone even read this damned thing anymore?
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[27 Jan 2006|11:28pm]
Alright, this update differs from any other I've made in the past 7 months or so, in the sense that I'm not in Iraq. I left earlier today and am now sitting in Kuwait waiting for the plane home. I'll get home around 4 p.m. or so on the 30th. If any of you want to call, my cell is still (520)204-2036, if not then we'll talk when we talk I suppose.

I just found out Chris Penn (He played Nice Guy Eddie in Reservoir Dogs) died. Fuck. I was always amazed with how much emotion that guy put out in the final shootout scene when he is yelling at Mr. White to stop pointing a gun at his dad.

That's it. I have plenty of post-Iraq shit to write about, that will come later. I'll also put a link up to some pictures and videos, or other shit you may/may not care to see.
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[11 Jan 2006|01:47am]
6 months or so ago I would have given my left fucking arm to be where I am right now, nearing the end of my deployment, about to go home. I would have imagined back then that at this point I would be in complete agony watching as the days dragged by so incredibly slow, waiting for the day when I can finally relax, take my fucking boots off, and be Scott again instead of some Lance Corporal in the Marine Corps.

This however, is so much worse. I feel nothing less than complete and total apathy. I feel like if I were to recieve news that our deployment was extended another 3 months I wouldn't even give a shit. It's like the day I've been lusting over for over half a year is almost here and I don't even care enough to keep track of how many days I have left. What the fuck is the point of living life if you have nothing to look foward to?

I'm trying to think of any news I might have, stuff that has happened and the like. I don't really have any. I'll be home soon enough, anyway. Bye.
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[20 Dec 2005|02:16pm]
Once again I'll skip transferring my notebook journal entries onto here for the sake of maintaining everyone's interest.

I received letter mail from Dub today, Tiffany, and my grandmother. Thank you Dub for the artwork, Tiffany for the sticker and excellent stationary, and my grandma's letter contained interesting information pertaining to my dad and my sister, Kali.

I re-read all the mail I've gotten from Lauren today, plus looked at some of my own LJ posts, particularly the one regarding my SLC trip. All in all it was a pretty bad idea as far as my mood goes, but I was amused that I had completely forgotten about the glass of water, and I still have The Brave Little Toaster, unwatched.

I'm getting closer and closer to going home but it still feels like forever. I just want to go into like a year long coma.

That's it.
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[12 Dec 2005|06:59pm]
Alright, the Lauren situation is over, done. There is so much I have to say, I wrote six fucking pages that I was going to copy onto here, but I'm sure you've all lost interest by now, provided you had any to begin with.

So I'll go on about various other, equally uninteresting topics that are of little importance to you. Or me for that matter.

- Bryon and Ivan get high all the time now. Retards. I can't wait until I deploy again and my mom picks it up.
- I've been in 2 fights in the past 2 days. One of which was with two guys. I must be PMSing.
- I need to hit the gym pretty hard before I come back to the states, I've lost quite a bit of weight.
- My mom moved from the house into a smaller town house type thing and bought new furniture. She sent me pictures, I like it.
- I plan on enrolling in courses when I get back for....I don't know.

I guess that's it. Bye.
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[07 Dec 2005|10:34pm]
My head is spinning, I never in a million years thought I could possibly hate life this much. I am in what is probably the most stressful environment in the world, never getting a break, constantly having my life threatened, working 15+ hour workdays, it's getting to be too much, and this is the very least of my problems. I'm on the verge of losing the greatest thing in my life, and the situation only seems to worsen every time I approach it. 2 weeks ago I didn't think life could get any worse, but at least then Lauren wanted to try to fix things. Now she has all but stopped caring. She is completely unwilling to make the smallest of sacrifices in order to try to see if we're still capable of having what we had. How he could go from being 'not even close to being worth it' to the one who has completely replaced me in less than 2 weeks is so far beyond my ability to grasp. How can she just forget the feelings we used to have for each other? How can she even COMPARE them with such petty lust? I cannot believe that I've taken such a decline that she can't resist her hormone urges for 2 fucking months in order to try to salvage our relationship. My world is falling apart, I'm powerless to do anything about it, and the only person who can does not care enough.

But they made DDR for Gamecube. Guess my problems are solved, right?
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[07 Dec 2005|03:13am]
I am slowly becoming more and more used to the idea that Lauren will not play as big a role in my life as I always envisioned her being, which I'm not particularly happy about. Despite the fact that this has by far been the most painful experience of my recent life, the last thing I ever wanted to do was become numb, but that's exactly what is happening. I see Lauren becoming the next Valerie in my life, someone who was once closer to me that anyone else I know, but for whom I now hardly ever even find the time of day for. Not out of any kind of spite, for I wish Valerie nothing but happiness, but out of a sheer lack of interest and lack of depth in our relationship. Maybe however it's only fitting. Is that not exactly what happened to me from Lauren's point of view? Even now I would never do anything to Valerie or anyone else alive for that matter to make her go through what I've been going through for the past 2 weeks or so. I still look at Lauren's pictures and think to myself how beautiful she is, but physical attraction is not something I'm going to even try to base any type of relationship off of. Maybe the instant I see Lauren again all these notions will disappear just like pre-Iraq during the times I felt our relationship was losing some of it's steam, but this is far deeper than that. This is betrayal on every level possible, including basic friendship. How can I entirely forgive someone who completely said " Fuck Scott " when I most needed her to be faithful, if not just a good friend? It seems like all my thoughts conflict with each other, even now I read about Lauren having a little scuffle with Jared and it bothers the living shit out of me. Of course that would have pissed me off before, but I have no reason to care anymore, right?
Am I mad that it's him and not me? Maybe I'm just mad at the fact that I am unable to beat him within an inch of his life. Maybe I'm just mad at the world. I don't know anymore.
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[30 Nov 2005|04:37pm]
I'm not going to dwell on anything mentioned in the previous two posts in here anymore, it's being taken care of and I'm content with it.

Some things on my mind:

BAD: The package my mom sent me obviously got lost, because today I recieved the one that she sent after the one in question. Fuck Post Office, all we fricken HAVE here is mail you could at least not lose it for us.
GOOD: I just checked my Marine Online account and apparently I rate to wear the Combat Action Ribbon.....bitches.
BAD: Lauren took out her lip ring. Does she have any IDEA what that lip ring does for me?
GOOD: I have 36 days left before I come back here to Camp Mercury for my 2-3 months of combat stress classes and what not, then I'm home.

That's all for now.
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Shit. [24 Nov 2005|03:46pm]
I'll elaborate on my previous entry a bit. To be short and sweet about it, I've been cheated on. I still cannot believe it, it's like car wrecks or cancer in that it's one of those things you always hear about happening to other people but you never really think it will ever happen to you until it does. I'm trying to be understanding, hoping there is a chance things can somehow go back to how they were before, but maybe that is an impossibility and I'm just fooling myself in a desperate attempt to cling on to something I don't want to let go of.

Thus I ask anyone reading this: Do you think trust like that can ever truly be restored, and if so, under what circumstances? Is that simply one of those bridges that can never be rebuilt once it's been burned? Help me, I'm lost.
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[22 Nov 2005|07:06pm]
In mentally preparing myself to come to Iraq, I thought I had prepared myself for everything that could possibly happen to me over here. Getting shot, losing limbs, paralysis, death, you name it. I thought I was ready for anything.

How sadly mistaken I was.
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[10 Jul 2005|08:00pm]
This isn't Scott, I just thought I better let you all know (or at least those of you who plan on writing him) you do NOT have to wait until the 17th to send him mail. At least, that is, if you use Motomail. I'm not sure about snail mail because I haven't used it, but I'm assuming if Motomail recognizes his address then the post office will.

So please write him soon.
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[05 Jul 2005|07:51am]
Alright, this is my last entry for the next 7 months or so. I have nothing to say really, but for those of you who wish to write me/send me shit in Iraq, my address is as follows.....

PFC Kammerer, Scott
2/7,E Co,Wpns Plt
UIC 41550
FPO AP 96426-1550

That's it, however you CANNOT send any mail prior to July 17th because that is when the post office officially recognizes the address.

That address is for snail mail, but there is also MotoMail which you can type on the computer and send with no postage whatsoever and I should get it within 24 hours. I unfortunately cannot use MotoMail in return so any response I have to your guys' mail will take the long way, but that shouldn't stop you from writing me on MotoMail everyday anyway, right?


I'm not sure how it works as far as how you guys know how to send it to me, so I'll just give you my info and you can figure it out
Name: PFC Kammerer, Scott
Unit: 2/7
Company: Echo (or E)
Platoon: Weapons (Wpns)

Okay, that's it, PLEASE send me lots of shit people, so I don't go insane, okay? And remember, Scott likes pictures.

EDIT: Alright, when signing up for motomail, you must find my address and in your options it will look like this:
FPO AP 96426-1550 - Unit 41550 - 2/7 E CO
And other than that, it's quite self explanatory.

Write soon, I love you all.
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[21 May 2005|03:01pm]
I am so exhausted.
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[14 May 2005|08:33pm]
I have something to say real quick. I am pussy whipped and Lauren, I love you.

That's all, bye.
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[04 Apr 2005|02:45am]
Here I am home with absolutely nothing to do because my mom is in Mexico and my dumbass locked her car keys in the car, so I will play with my LJ a bit. I'll start by recapping in some detail my Salt Lake City trip last week.

Kris, Ivan, and myself arrived at something like 7 in the morning and checked into the hotel immediately, where we layed around for maybe two hours since we were all pretty damned tired. At somewhere around 10 we went to the Cottonwood Mall, which is a crappy mall by the way. I only went to go to the comic book place there only to find that they did not have Green Lantern: Rebirth. At somewhere around noon we picked up Lauren and went to the city library, which is a very nice library with really cool elevators. The library however isn't as significant as the fact that across the street from the library is the lamest and most retarded attempt at art I have ever seen. Sitting on a bench there is a statue (or I'm assuming it's a statue, it looks more like paper mache) of a seagull, wearing sunglasses, and holding a red tin full of mashed potatoes. Tell me that isn't the stupidest thing ever? Like why the hell would the city even allow that to be displayed in public? Anyway after the library we went to Jordan Commons which is basically a movie theater with a food court. Jordan Commons is actually about 10 or 15 minutes down the street from the library but somehow Lauren managed to turn it into an hour and a half drive. Anyway, we finally got there and Kris ordered some nachos while Ivan and I fucked some shit up in Time Crisis 3 like we always do then the 4 of us saw The Ring 2. Lauren and I sat by ourselves which is probably good because I'm sure we made a decent amount of noise fighting over the arm rest and what not. On a side note, The Ring 2 sucked ass. I mean I missed like a good 20% of it because of Lauren being so distracting and it still sucked complete ass, except for this really cool scene with the deer. Okay so we then went back to the hotel room where we got bored and decided to drive around looking for a Starbucks only to have no success. Lauren was clearly tired so I suggest we stop looking for somewhere to go and just go back to the hotel room as Lauren layed down with her head on my lap. Once back at the hotel room we all layed down because my ass was tired as hell but Lauren, who was again laying on me, absolutely refused to stop tickling me, so we didn't actually fall asleep until like an hour after laying down. Oh yeah I forgot, I showed Lauren an act of complete kindness by getting up and getting her a cup of water and she thanked me by throwing said cup of water at me and SOAKING me in my sleeping clothes. We only slept for like an hour when Lauren woke me up and said she should go home so we took her home and then once back at the hotel I crashed. Sunday morning we did pretty much nothing because that's exactly what there is to do in Salt Lake City on an Easter Sunday, so I'll fast forward to later when after forever and a day Lauren convinced her dad to let her go to the movies. This time we saw Guess Who?, which was okay I think but again it's not like I paid full attention to the movie. After the movie I realized I was missing my digital camera which killed my mood a little bit and then the night ended with me refusing to give Lauren a goodbye hug and Lauren wishing for me to die in Iraq. True romance. The next day I called Jordan Commons and they had my camera at Lost and Found so we went and got it and then left to drive back at like 11:30. So that was Salt Lake City in a fair amount of detail.

Back in 29 Palms doing really long and tiring training and the shit is driving me crazy. When I get back from Iraq I am SO putting in to go to EOD school, EOD standing for Explosive Ordnance Disposal. I had been trying to go to Coachella where Lauren would be along with some other people but I don't see that happening now, so basically all I have to look forward to is pre-deployment leave.

I did a survey too.Collapse )
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[29 Mar 2005|12:05am]
First off, I didn't lose my camera, I'm just a moron. Secondly, we are getting ready to leave Salt Lake City now and I'm absolutely dreading it. There is a serene feeling that comes from being somewhere you aren't used to and not having to worry about any of the typical daily life problems that tend to pop up when you're back home. That and I am going back to the most miserable place on Earth and I won't be able to go home for like 4 weeks. Anyway, some parts of the trip went exactly how I expected them to and others did not. It didn't exactly end on a particularly glorious note but I feel wiser as a result. SLC is a very pretty place, however there is not a whole lot to do, especially on a Sunday, so I can't see myself convincing Kris and Ivan to come back any time soon. That's all I have for now, maybe later I'll add details, maybe I won't. Right now thought I'm exhausted. Bye.
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Hatred. [28 Mar 2005|02:43pm]
I lost my fucking digital camera.
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Hi, my name is Scott. [28 Feb 2005|05:28am]
I am home right now, thus I am in somewhat of a content state of mind. Last night Kris, Andrew and I went to the mall and did absolutely nothing, the highlight being when some girl we passed called one of us a hottie and we started arguing over which one of us she was talking about, even though she was probably looking at the guys behind us. Then we met up with Ivan and went to some girls' apartments whom work with Ivan and Kris and consumed some alcohol. I didn't have too much but Ivan got thrashed, I had no idea how hilarious he could be. Sometime in the not-too-distant future Kris, Ivan, and I are going to Salt Lake City where I will visit Lauren and we can do cool shit like watch The Brave Little Toaster and read Where's My Blankie. Soon I must leave to go back to hell, so I'll be off now. Bye.
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